antepathy

Dude. Seriously. It's June. What the hell, self? Way to disappear for like...ever? Spring was not so fun: family issues, work issues, health issues--more issues than the proverbial magazine subscription!  And I didn't even want to be living it much less bringing y'all down barfing up about it. One example: I lost my dearest, sweetest feline companion, of 12 years.  The world knows no cruelty as hard as watching someone  you love suffer from a vile disease like cancer.  He died in my arms on 20 Feb 2012. Anyway, I've learned quite a few lessons about who 'friends' are and who aren't.  I am a slow learner, apparently, and there have been many

People, I have real life depressing problems.  Like...you do not even want to hear them. Because I am not ready to actually type the words out myself.  Let's just say, my life? THE SUCKIEST. The only consolation I have here is that I have done nothing wrong in this.  It doesn't help much, but at least I'm not beating myself up about something I did or could have done differently. I'm sitting in my house, for however long it still is my house, with my old, diabetic cat on my lap.  It's amazing how animals seem to know when we need some comfort, and amazing even more, how much it helps, just to have a fat cat purring on your lap.  Life sucks,

So. Anyway. Haven't posted the rest of Halcyon because there's like...two sentences before it gets straight into the NSFW stuff.  Uhhh, any suggestions how to handle this? I fail at suave. Been derping around on my LJ fic comm.  ....robotpron of course. Hit a wall--my thyroid tends to just flip me off from time to time so if it seems I've been absent...I have.  There have been days when I haven't even talked to my best friends. At all. People I normally IM for hours. Days where it takes more energy than I have to, oh, like...make food. I suck. Anyway. I'm back, more or less.  Anyone have anything they want me to write?  No, not for money